As life has been, I have never had a chance to be completely on my own. Student life at home, with parents melted into married life with hubby and in laws. Kids followed, and my desire to have the house only to myself just faded away....
The past few days unexpectedly left me alone at home, with the kids vacationing at their grandparents' place. The little desires of opening the main door to a empty home suddenly became a reality. Endless hours of noiseless rest stretched out in the mind's eye.
Sitting down for a meal alone, I realised i was just that, alone. No bags and shoes dumped in the drawing room, no fighting for extra time in the bath tub, no sneaky eyes peeping to check if I had fallen asleep....My afternoons are empty and long.
I envy those who enjoy their own company because I thrive in the cacophony of my kids and miss them desperately when they are not there.
But this has to remain a secret from them
The past few days unexpectedly left me alone at home, with the kids vacationing at their grandparents' place. The little desires of opening the main door to a empty home suddenly became a reality. Endless hours of noiseless rest stretched out in the mind's eye.
Sitting down for a meal alone, I realised i was just that, alone. No bags and shoes dumped in the drawing room, no fighting for extra time in the bath tub, no sneaky eyes peeping to check if I had fallen asleep....My afternoons are empty and long.
I envy those who enjoy their own company because I thrive in the cacophony of my kids and miss them desperately when they are not there.
But this has to remain a secret from them
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