Just let it be

I am a planner by nature. There is a mental ' to-do' list which keeps whirring at all times. I complete a job and mentally tick it off. There is an insane satisfaction in putting these ticks. I challenge myself to cram as much as I can into the same minute, as if someone will put me on a pedestal and award me with a medal. As the day draws close, I often count off all the things done just to feel good.

I am sure this can be pretty irritating to those who take life at a normal pace. I always wonder how a person can carry on by saying, " I will do it later" or " I forgot" or more simply, " I don't think I can do it " with complete nonchalance. I am in awe of such people mentally. If there is one thing that I want Santa to gift me is the ability to calm down and take things slow. I not only mess up my own peace but become a ten pincered mega crab for those who don't fall in step with my pace and plans.

I plan and re-plan, think and over-think at all times. Those who are suffering from this syndrome will know that this can be pretty painful. Out of place things becon me with open arms , screaming to be put back into place. Its a different story that I start screaming simultaneously at the offender!

So I  have decided to consciously take it slower from now on. Let me also try my hand at mental peace. So let the bed be unmade today, and let the butter knife remain in the dish. The "to -do" monster is struggling against its chains,  but I will not unleash it on my mind. So today I will just 'let it be' and see if that makes me feel fine.

Will update soon....