Reversal

I have often felt sad
In the past not far
Been very upset with God.
Coz the lack of a girl,
A fairy, an angel
Had my mind devoured.
Those little ballerinas
Who played downstairs
Thier hair with pink slides
Had me rivetted
With stars in my eyes
At their dainty lil fights.
Of pink and purple
Of silver bells
Of pretty makeup and shoes
Of tinsel town
And disney princesses
And powder blue tutus
I would dream
And wish for a lil girl
My own doll for loving
And often lament
With a sad heart
Of an emptyness within.

Last days though
I have oft wondered
About my misplaced desire
I have found a thought
Which circles around
In my mind's quagmire
How less cute
How less lovely
Is my boy's sweaty face?
His twisted smile,
And blackened chin
Dirty shoe's untied lace ?
His clumsy hands
With balls and cars
And permanent knee scrape
Mismatched socks,
Untidy locks,
The dirty towel drape.
How endearing I find
The little hands
Dragging the snot across
How my heart swells
As tears well
On a tennis point's loss

I wonder when
With stealthy steps
My heart has changed it's tune
My lil boys
With their clumsy ways
Are my life's fortune.